afterthoughts

Goodbye 2009 hello 2010. its been one heck of a ride.

from accepting that failure its not the end of the world even though at that time it seemed like it was.(im such a drama queen) but it has also made me realise that  people around me has been very supportive of me.and im very much thankful for it.

facing and staring at brick walls and thinking that it looks like there really is almost  no way for me to crossover.and again i learned that if i give people  time and have faith people can really surprise me.beyond my expectations.

seeing on how welcoming a new life into the world can change so many things and how hard it was for her.im really amazed by her strentgh in staying strong and being firm for what and how she wants it to be.and of course seeing how that experience has changed her, made me realise things happen for a reason and its up to you how you want to make do with the situation.good or bad.your choice.homie is a role model for standing up for herself.so strong even my parents are amazed by you.needless to say of course i am too.

i have learned that keeping things in really does not help at all.i might think at that time that if i keep it all it solves the  issue.more like i was seriously in denial and trying to run away from it ada la..haish.good thing i have got it through my stubborness that that's nota solution.

and of course finally one of the changes is you.yes you boo.ur great.i really think you should know that i think you've been great and im gushing over you.hehehe.i am so lucky and thankful to have you :*

Alhamdulilah it has been a wothwhile ride and no regrets of the things i've been through it has thought me and i've learnt from it all.so long farewell 2009.

Random surprise

By showing up and surprising me you changed my ordinary day to a great day.Getting to spend sometime just me and you in the afternoon walking around looking at random things,browsing through the antique store and just talking has made my day.Its the simple little things that made me smile : )




boo : ur gf loves you very much

~my abang's graduation~

Congratulations abang! my big brother have graduated and now it's the beginning of a new chapter in your life.Once you've start working and you're earning your own money you can always take your sister out for treats.yeay! of course take mama and abah for treats first then your sisters.hehehe.i can see both mama and abah is happy that their eldest has graduated.now its your time to go out and venture out for new things and experiences out there.i pray for all the best for you abang.lots of love,fibs : )

*she's a cutie pie*

An addition to the family,its a little baby girl.congratulations hommie! she's so tiny i was afraid to carry her the

the first time.i had to wait til she's a few days old til i had the courage to carry her.she's a cutie and of course i cant wait to spoil my niece with pretty dresses,toys and loads of candies and everything else i can think of later.As for now i'm on the lookout for a cute tiny little dress for my tiny little niece.an excuse and reason to go shopping~

evrything n everyone needs time n space

It has become very clear to me now that the more i try to fix things the worse it gets,the harder i try the worst it gets.i am trying my best to fix it and clearly im not doing the right thing seeing as everything i've done n said is wrong.the way i see it for now, everyone is tense,sad,hurt,angry,annoyed,irritated and is literaly at the edge and will blow of any time soon.the same way as im feeling.so i should know better than to keep on trying to fix it when clearly im making it worse.my parents are worried and is dissapointed with me.and that makes me sad that i dissapointed them,my other half is going thru her own major life issues i should not burden her with mine,the one's close to me is extremely irritated with my efforts and i should back off now before i make it worse,im too distracted with my problems that lately i havent been the usual me for the him and i havent been there for him.and im hurt and im confuse and i know im not the only one with problems.im guessing others have enough on their plate already and to not want  to deal with additional problems and issues.no matter how much i've cried will not fix things and i was told a good advice that crying will not make it better.so looks like whats best for now is everyone and everything needs time and space.

attachment : when boredom strikes.

BORING.its very boring most of the time.there's not much to do and i honestly am not sure how am i going to fill up the practical training log book.been to court once,and aution once,it was intresting to see how things goes there.other than that most of the time in the office helping out with filing,or looking for cases, photocopying, typing out stuff,when there's work to do i get excited.which is unsual for me.exception this time around probably its bcos im so bored.whenever there's work given to me i gladly accept it.hahaha.i'd rather do work than play games and surf the net.after all what is attchment for then? 16 more days to go.haih..