overwhelm

im up n awake.i knoe its early.monday morning pulak 2 bgn awal.semangat sgt..yea la 2.so not..feel down n draggy.mayb its monday blues.things are so overwhelming lately.if its a test for me which i think it is.i'm trying and doing my best to get through this.



went to watch mooting at UM last friday and there was a moment when it hit me and it made me think can i do that? i honestly freaked out a bit watching them moot in the lecture theater.talked about it later with zella and mashi and they said they were thinking the same thing jgk..mooting made us think and realise that we still have loads to seriously learn about.



as for about family matters.i knoe everyone is doing their best to deal with it,move on and stay strong.insya'Allah everything will b okay n stay ok.i knoe i'm the weak one in the family always have been.i pity abg arif n aqilah always have to b strong for me.my rock n backbone.im learning to b strong for the family.i will for our family's sake.



about frens.

lala-the busy one.its hectic fr u.nk meet up before ur sem starts..nnt lg u busy.

alia- i knoe its tough what ur going thru.but like we talked bout.ada hikmah.plus if stress2 besides zarif i'm here too n we have a goal to reach.

liy- its ur final sem.all out.do ur best.we all knoe u can.DL again babe.make us proud.igt our deal.

tiks- its been long x jumpa n im yet to finish reading da book i borrowed from u.i wanna meet up.miss u.

farah- ur back!about time.i knoe those in germany will miss u.but ktorang kt sini lg miss u.

najlaa -lg la.lama sgt x talk bout all the sillyness n craziness.

nisha -dah mcm off the radar.tiks we soo have to go kidnap her so she'll have no choice.

bonjella-i knoe ur in a tough situation at the moment.i can see it.whatever it is i'm here for u like you are when i need u.



about my kakak
focus n study hard k.


about my dear t
i'm wondering if its me doing things wrong and if so what im doing wrong.i miss so much us talking about anything and everything.us laughing.me being silly with you.i heart you t and i miss you.


about my studies
man ooo man..the goal.yup tho its agk susah i will do my best.


tho its all overwhelming these are the people and things i care the most about and for that
reason i'll bear with it.

im giving in and letting it slide

im just really bummed and i've decided i'm just gonna let it all slide.i dont have the strength for it.its just so tiring to deal with all this.so tired.and actually kindda sick of it and buat sakit hati.do la whatever that makes you happy.whats weird is you can do something like that.even when it hurts another person.i really dont understand how there are people like this in the world.i guess thats life.whatever thats happening right now i guess there is a reason for it...i just believe in the way karma works.i've really tried my very best to deal with it.you are still like that jgk..and worst part is its hurting me.so im giving in.