You dont understand

"When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years"


You say you're here but truth is you're just so busy wrapped up in your own world. I've been alone in this. There's no "us" if its just me making the effort while you are just so engrossed with your own life. I have no choice but to walk away from this or else i'll keep on drowning deeper while you are just so selfish to even notice im drowning. I just hope that one day you will realise there's so much more to life other than your llb.I hope you will learn to make time for those who care for you. Because if you really care you will make time.

Im not expecting to always meet you. I understand its tough,tiring,stressful and you dont even get enough sleep and there's tonnes of assigments and tests one after another. I understand.But at least call. One phone call that lasts longer than 50 seconds, is that too much to ask for? I have tried. But i've finally lost my patience.The effort has got to come from you yourself.I really did do my best to make it work.Its time for me to move on.

As for now

* I miss my mama and abah very much.

* Very annoyed with big sister's attitude.

* Its been about a month plus since i've met any of my friends. I miss that too.

* I've started work/attatchment.

* I've been given research on bankruptcy and submission.

* I've been given case study and articles to be read and discussed.

* I'm scared I'd make myself come of as incompetent and stupid by doing the
research and discussing the case and articles wrongly.

* Almost everyday at work i feel as tough im so small and dumb because i dont know
much as compared to the lawyers and chambering students.

* My high spirit and excitement of learning and experiencing new things is slightly
dampened.

* Very disappointed with some people's preconception of me before they actually get
to know the real me.

* So very disappointed on how people judge a book by its cover.

* I'm not gonna let anyone make me feel small and stupid.What's most important is
im there to work and learn.

* I'm gonna keep on working hard to learn new things and gain experience from this
opportunity.

* If i make mistakes,look or sound stupid so what.I'm still learning.

* Its what learning is about.Everyone makes mistakes.I make mistakes too at times
and I'll learn from it.

* What sets a smart person apart from an ignorant person is,

Ignorant person = those who keep on making the same mistakes

Smart person = those who learn from their mistakes.

* My current mode: to learn and develop myself

* I shall not be so bothered with what others think of me.

* I'm sincere to learn and that's what matters most.