Marie Rose Salad

Out of the many choices of beautifully arranged food at the Harrods food hall and my eyes was fixed on the prawn cocktail salad. I looked at the bowl full of the plump prawns coated in the creamy dressing and kept on thinking should i get it? Should i? Did a mental calculation and converted it to ringgit and decided no i shouldnt its too expensive just for a prawn cocktail salad. Azim looked at me looking at it so longingly and he said lets just get it, or else you'll be thinking about it later on wishing you had bought it to at least try it. 

Got the green light and im a happy woman! So the guy scooped it for us and it came up to about £8 i cant help it but convert it to ringgit automatically everytime, it worked up to about 40 ringgit and i shamelessly told the guy who attended to us to teduce it a bit, its too much to pay for prawn cocktail. Well at least for me. So he scooped it out and it worked up to around £4 plus. Still feels expensive to me but Azim kept on saying its ok once in a while and i can see you really want it. Hahahahaha now i know what expression to put on when i want  handbags! 

Azim paid for it and we quickly looked for the exit and found benches outside Harrods and i quickly opened my box. Boyyy oh boy! Am i glad the wonderful husband of mine said to just get it. His treat. It was better than i imagined it. And im not a fan of prawns. And there i was eating my prawn cocktail scrapping it down to the bottom of the barrel literally! Ignoring the pigeons disturbing me. Oblivious to it all as i happily eat my prawn salad. 

Happy tummy = happy women! = happy wife = stress free husband! Hahahaha  

Silver lining

They say those that are about to get married are at times tested. As orang tua-tua melayu say 'nak bina masjid' and there will be hasutan from syaitan. Hence the arguments that we have are often over silly small things that blow out of proportion. And its madness! Syukur Alhamdulilah often the loving patient fiance of mine will remind me not to be to emotional and my sister will remind me nak bina masjid syaitan will hasut. For bulan Ramadhan although the syaitans are tied but then there is my nafsu to get upset and angry. Also this is for preparations in future.Because after all both of us are humans and we have our weaknesses. Hence my  idea came about. (I pray is a brilliant idea )

Often after silly arguments we sit back and realise it was very silly to argue over little things, each time after it both of us will remind each other (most of the time its the loving fiance practicing his leadership skill reminding me) to always remember to pray, remember to make du'a for guidance and blessings from Allah the All Mighty to ease our journey and transition into our new phase of our lives soon to be husband and wife. Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Apart from that, I also had an idea. Ta daa!! Keeping a note book,to write all the happy moments, all the funny things he does, the thoughtful things he does, the random things he says, just all the wonderful memories and good stuff all to be filled in my note book which i have named the silver lining. So the next time, i hope there wont be anymore silly arguments, but we are both humans and there will be times we argue over silly things and provoke each other. And at that moment when i feel like screaming at him or throwing my bag at him or crying, that will be my que to open my silver lining note book and flip through all the happiness. 

Its so common and normal that when people are angry we only zoom in on the negative things and we lose sight of all the good and happy things. Being human, at that time when im very very very upset emotional and angry is the time when I need to remind myself of all the good things, to remind myself not to lose sight of it just because of  a silly argument between us. 

From time to time I will write all the good things he has said and done. And tonight before im off to bed I've got my night lamp on  and I'm snuggled under my blanket, here I go off to write the good stuff :)

The Cure

   

I was in so much pain, my abdominal pain, chest pain and heart pounding so fast. The pain was excruciating I was awoken from my sleep at 4 am by the pain. Finally decided this cant be normal food poisoning, woke mama and abah and was brought to the hospital in the wee hours. 

Lesson learned, if at any time should I ever encounter such horrible food poisoning. If it has exceeded even though am already on medication, after 3 days still having diarrhea, go again to the doctor. Health is very very very important. Dont ever take it lightly. 

Doctor had to take my my blood, urine and feces to do a lab test on it. Worried the virus had infected my liver. Thank god few hours after I was admitted with IV drips and medication injected into me, the pain subsided and was bearable. Even so doc wouldn't let me go home, still wanted to supervise me. Oh god being in the hospital is a depressing feeling. Although I was feeling much better Alhamdulilah to Allah'sWill and the medication. I couldn't wait to go back home. 

What kept me smiling and laughing while i as admitted was my family. My family berkampung in my hospital room. Brought blankies, pillow and snacks. We watched tv just as we would at home. Moo Che Che of course was the one who slept at the hospital to accompany me. We had our sleep over. Watching movie from the laptop laughing and giggling til the nurse came in to check on us why as the patient still awake giggling. 

The wonderful fiance'  although tired and stressed from work came to visit during lunch break and after work. Took my phone forced me to smile to snap a photo. Telling me about his day, making me laugh and giggle. Kept on saying he wished he could squeeze on the hospital bed and snuggle with me. I kept saying soon he can. Amin. 

Finally mama managed to convince the doc to let me go home.  Went back to work as normal and came home to the cutie pie who has been wondering where is her cu (mak su) .  She has been asking her tok mama about her cu. Such a clever little toddler. Snuggled with her to watch twinkle twinkle little star video and that, made my day : )

For few days I was not at home,at the hospital such a somber and depressing feel, nevertheless my family was with me. They brought home to me. And that is part of the cure. My family. Syukur Alhamdulilah. 

Reclaim your heart by Yasmin Mogahed- Equipped myself with new tools.

I have heard good things about her, her writings and her talk and when the opportunity came that I could go for her talk within a heartbeat I said YES!! Bless my dear friend Saiha for taking me with her.I am so very glad.

I have not mention about this to anyone, this would be the first time I'm writing about this, letting it out. I have no idea who reads this blog mine. Not that it matters, its more of like place for me to write and express myself. And this I have kept in me. I was so overwhelmed, in a good way.

I have never felt this way, I have gone to religious talks and classes. But somehow someway, reclaim your heart talk by Yasmin Mogahed. Something struck my heart that night. There was a moment I felt my heart soften, and I just felt like crying. I know how stubborn and headstrong I can be. Trust me ask my family and my fiance' they will agree. But that night, I felt something. A sense of realisation that made me think Oh Allah how can I be so blind all this while. I felt a great sense of sadness. At the same time I felt calmness.

SubhanAllah how Allah have given me the opportunity, led and guide me back to the right path at the right moment. Yasmin's talk reminded me on what's my purpose here. Dunya is not forever. Its not everything, its a just a platform to prepare for the hereafter for Jannah. Its sad how as of late I have been viewing it from the wrong perspective. How I have been chasing the wrong things, my proprieties were wrong. The talk made me view life from a different angle. It was very refreshing, rejuvenating to have listened to her talk. So calming.

I equipped myself with these tools from time to time. Because I don't know when I will feel down with all the trials and tribulations of day to day life. True enough a few days after the talk, I was faced with a test. Yet I was too upset and angry to step back and think rationally. Its not easy when people belittle me when I myself have doubts about myself at times. I was very upset, no doubt about it, I even cried, so disturbed and over-thinking it, over-analyzing myself. Still filled with sadness and anger I didnt even pray didnt make dua'. My heart was so hard and clouded by syaitan's whispers and incitement to just stay angry. But the next day as I was flipping through my daily planner, I came across the notes I jot down few days ago during Yasmin's talk. MashaAllah Allah is the greatest, how even when I choosed to cry instead of praying and asking for help yet SubhanAllah Allah showed me the way when I am down and upset Allah led me.

Straight away when I saw what I jot down I was reminded by Yasmin's talk and as I sat quietly I had flashbacks of her talk. And I realised and told myself look there will be people that are going to belittle me, my ambitions, cruel people. But who are they? Allah is the greatest, it is Allah who decides who succeeds. I strive to do my best have the right attitude and I put my trust in Allah.

Note to self:  I have to equip myself with more of such tools in the form of  religious talks and writings  

Wedding Preparation 1st phase

Wedding preparation phew it sure isn't a walk in the park. I literally have one special file just for wedding stuff, to make sure its all organized. Checklist,receipts, to do list, things to buy, things to rent, list goes on. As of now I have just completed the first phase. Venue, invitation card,door gifts,attire for nikah & reception,  shoes, hair and makeup, attire for my maid of honour and my special girls, and of course kursus kahwin. 

As for my wedding attire I was so very lucky to have been served by a very helpful and experienced lady at the material store. So many material so many shades so overwhelming! Luckily the owner saw we were there doing our on stuff  rummaging hahaha and assigned the senior manager to us. Syukur she was so very helpful. Very patient and very friendly whilst attending to my specific and particular needs from the particular shade to particular material.It took me 3 hours just to decide on the material for solemnization and reception. I had already taken about 2 hours the week before discussing with the design with the designer for the reception attire. Another round later to discuss design for solemnization.

It was a good idea for her to place us in a private room whilst we choose the material and all. With all the other 'brides to be' choosing their material it was like a circus! So very nice of them to provide us with a room with refreshment. They sure do know how to take care of their brides to be! 

Kursus kahwin done! A bit bummed it wasant held at the mosque. Reason being there was technical difficulties. The place the kursus kahwin was held could have been better and more comfortable. Sigh was looking forward to going to the mosque. But all is well, some parts were a bit dry, some parts funny. Done with the two full days of my weekend for that week. Spend it attending kursus kahwin. Phew done with that stage. On to next step for the paperwork which will be in second phase of wedding prep.

Jakarta trip, attended a family friend wedding and at the same time took the opportunity for some more wedding preparations too lalalala. Found and bought pretty pretty stuff at reasonable prices.  Of course it helps a lot that we had family friends there that were very helpful on where to go for the wedding stuff. Hehehe highly recommend it, if whilst planning a wedding 'bride to be' also happened to go to jakarta. Because to go all the way just for wedding preparations and shopping will be costly. But whilst already there, might as well shop for the pretty pretty stuff at reasonable prices.

* Girls dream an daydream about their wedding day and all the wedding preparations. Now that I am  actually preparing for my wedding do I realise, Oh my! Loads of things to do *

Weekend of *wonderfulness*

Adriana Calisa Joifin turns one!!! Geramm with this little cheeky girl. So clever, so cheeky, such a cutie! Time flies by so fast. She's already a year old. Syukur Alhamdulilah she's growing into such a clever girl she picks up words so fast even before turning a year old she's already walking, saying words, with her cheeky antics (she's a dancing toddler). Love love looove this little one. However im still yet to figure out why she refuses to call me maksu and instead calls me wow wow - __- when i know she can pronounce it. See she's too smart this little one bullying her maksu. May Allah bless the lovable Adriana Calisa Joifin with good health, smartness and cleverness and also most importantly  to be a good Muslim Amin.

When two families join together for one purpose, joining of  two souls. Words cant describe how happy I am to be engaged and soon to be married to the wonderful amazing best friend of mine, leader, clown, loving patient partner,companion, tutor,coach,sing-a-long buddy, some times my punching bag ( i've gotta work on that), shopping buddy, my counselor, my shrink, my go to guy, he's my guy soon to be my husband my leader my Imam, Amin. The best way to describe it is in Arabic, Subhanallah Alhamdulilah Syukur  am so very grateful to begin a new chapter together to be halal.

Dinner after work

So last Wednesday went over to Grafa Cafe and Restaurant for dinner. I've been meaning to check this place out. Was considering last year to have boo boo's surprise birthday at Grafa. But with traffic jam and all, change of plans, went somewhere else instead. Only last Wednesday did I get a chance to go to Grafa for dinner and catching up. And only then did  I see what an awesome place it is to hangout and have dinner. Good food, value for money, comfortable, laid back and most importantly it is CLEAN. I'm very very particular about cleanliness especially when it comes to eateries, f&b, cafe and restaurants. 

Will definitely be bringing my family over too. While I was there saw a family having dinner there and I know mama and abah will like this place too. And of course, new spot for brunch with the girls too. Hearty food   while catching up. Perfect combination! 

The pictures of the guys taken were taken at Grafa's front entrance single tables (neat idea! just nice size for having breakfast and coffee while reading  a good book).  And as we were walking out, that was when I saw the sign, there's a new store opening soon with carefully picked vendors selling awesome stuff.Love the concept and looking forward to the opening of the store. My ka che and her friends I know will love it. When she comes back from UK, I so know its the place for her and her friends to hang out,eat and shop. Also, Lovestruck is one of the lucky vendors too. Alhamdulilah so very very very excited!

Cheers!

Singing to myself

Confession,song stuck in my head on my mind,Chairlift's song. I'm sitting quietly in the corner,stuck in a traffic jam, waiting at the traffic light, waiting for the lift, in the lift, while doing work, while walking, while showering. Cant sleep, and guess what song is on my mind? none other than chairlift's!

Happy listening! 

Awesome Possum!

Bye 2012, HELLO 2013! 

Twenty twelve went well. Alhamdulilah. Finished and done with LLB, graduated with a full law degree. Accomplishment I most certainly am so very happy about. 

2013, Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. So many plans,hopes and dreams. One too many to write. Some are to be kept secret or only between those who knows and only to be revealed when the time comes. 

Right feet forward keep walking forward : )

Keepin' myself busy

All this free time and not doing anything productive is starting to take it's toll on me. AAAaaa! It's driving me nuts sitting round at home not doing much. Unless eating,eating,eating,eating  and more eating is considered as an activity. Anyhow in my attempt to keep myself busy is by helping out with Abg Man's wedding. Not that there is much to do,except for attending several meetings for the wedding reception and next is helping out with the door gifts, and rehearsal. Abg Man our eldest cousin is a married man!!! ohh we've been looking forward and rooting for it, everyone is happy including me! My best wishes to both Abg Man and kak shima  for a lifetime of joy and happiness, Amin.

My other attempt of me amusing myself is by giving a try of making my first ever cake batik. And from the outcome of it, there is a big possibility of it being my last time of  making it. How oh how could it get it wrong. A simple no bake cake, just mix all the ingredients and pop it in the fridge. Yet the finish product is all gooey not presentable cake. I was so upset, went on and on about it. Mama said it tastes nice, it doesn't look nice but the taste is nice. Very weird I have baked cookies,cakes,brownies,muffins and a simple no fuss cake batik and it comes out all gooey and yucky looking. Ssshhhessshh.

On a different note, boo boo and I recently celebrated our 4 years anniversary. Alhamdulilah am soo very thankful for apart from my family,boo boo the amazing loving wonderful person in my life. Wont be blogging about it now, as we are not done with the 4 year anniversary celebration/activities. I've got a couple more things under my sleeve that I have planned ; ) to surprise boo boo, it'l be fun with all this free time I have. 

A pair of sleepyheads

My happy excited handsome boo boo

"Knocked out"

Look at this hahahah *snickering mischievous laugh* he absolutely has no idea that I took a picture of him asleep in the living room. Pity my boo boo,after buka puasa,terawih,watching a comedy movie with my parents, I can see he's starting to get sleepy. And even that it's still only 10 something and our movie is at 12.30 midnight. 

Pity pity him,so after getting the green light from my mom  telling him he should take a nap first while waiting to go for our midnight movie and also my brother saying he should take a nap first. This is what it looks like haahahaha, my boo boo politely asleep. It took some time for me to wake him up to go for our movie, he is fast asleep despite my family and me having our moreh chit chatting and laughing.Must be really tired or he's just a sleepyhead! Once I manged to wake him up and off to the movies we go and guess what, surprise surprise halfway watching Batman I started to feel sleepy. And him, all fresh and excited no sign of  him feeling sleepy at all. Boys and men and action movie sighhh.

So sweet of him tho deciding to watch Batman with me instead of going out on boys night out. I was surprised too myself. Now I know why, come to think of it every movie we have watched together is either chick flicks, romantic comedy, comedy and animation. LOL. Explains it now why he would want to watch this action movie with me. But the downside  for him is at the end of the movie and he talks about Batman and how awesome it is in yadda yadda and what did I do? stare blankly at the floor, in the car stare blankly at the dashboard and then when he realises it. He looks at me and all I can say is I'm sorry I'm sleeeeeepy. Hahahaah haishh kesian boo boo next time action movie we should watch during daytime. Then we can go on and on talk about the movie ; D

First attempt at making home made beef patties

When mama said she's making beef patties, I of course jumped in excitement to help. Literally. Came back from terawih took off my telekung didn't even fold it, just left it on the sofa straight to the kitchen.Say food, cooking,baking to me and im in! Surprisingly it took less than an hour to make the beef patties. No wonder Jamie oliver's show about how making your own "fast food" is not only healthier its true, it does not take as long as most of us would have thought.I didn't time myself but If im not mistaken it took me about 45 minutes to make the beef patties. ( excluding cooking time).And of course gotta have it with gherkins. How can you not have burger with gherkin. It completes it!

Awesome now that I've discovered making my own burgers and that its  fast easy and simple,next  im considering  making my own nuggets. Fish nuggets, beef nugget,chicken nuggets. *Ooouuhhhh.*

How to lose weight at this rate?

Memang la gemok if bila terlepas to a supermarket kejap with boo boo on the pretense to buy ONLY sushi   JE at discounted price konon. Yeah right. Of course when I get there I start looking around. Less then half an hour later and I cant decide on which candy or chocolate I want. Boo boo lagi pulak melayan "ambik je just take which ever one you want." "Tak nak lagi chocolates? thats all?" me apa lagi menjadi-jadi la ambik macam macam. When Im stressed out I binged. And when im studying my companion is candies and chocolates!! Apa lagi boo boo melayan jgk dh tau im stressed up and if  candies and chocolates helps deal with it. Then candies and chocolates it is! Best part when I asked him do u think this is enough? I dont think its enough. Melayan lagi jgk said "takpe takpe later when its almost finish we buy some more". Pity my boo boo his gf getting rounder and rounder and puffed. Sighhh..Oh well. Will lose back the weight I gained. Later when I have the time. For now study and candies and chocolates.

Selfishness and difficulties and pressure

I really don't get it and I definitely do not understand why there are people who are so selfish  when it comes to sharing their knowledge or means of them obtaining their knowledge. What is so wrong with sharing knowledge and helping one another especially when seeing another person is in need of it. Even worst sadly this people call themselves Muslim. Yet among Muslim brothers and sisters they are selfish and are not open to sharing knowledge. Its not like people are expecting for something that is so exorbitant or unreasonable. Just to share knowledge. Even about that have to be selfish about it?Why? to proof a point to be competitive and show to others they are the best.Ya Allah its very hurtful and frustrating.

I shall not name any names but it really saddens me when they are certain people who are so selfish that they can watch their own classmates struggle or knowing they are having difficulties and yet do not offer to help. Even worst though knowing they have knowledge they choose  not share it and keep it all to themselves and act secretly about the resources of their knowledge.

Im writing about this when I came to know that my firm and some other firms have been warned by the lecturer  that we are in deep water for that particular subject. Its either some firms are having the tendency to fail or are on the borderline of failing. It saddens me. And to see that selfish people just walk around proudly although knowing and seeing other firms are struggling. Yet no offer has been made to help and even when we ask for help make it so difficult for us to get their help. People like this in wanting to be selfish wont go far. Because who are they to be selfish with their knowledge knowing that knowledge comes from Allah. They choose to hold back their knowledge and not share it with others, wait and see in return when it happens to them.Allah is  fair. I am very very very stressed out and saddened by this, hence why im writing about this.

However like I said Allah is Fair and I believe in Allah's help. Its written in the Quran.

            Surah Al Baqarah 2:286

On no soul doth Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear. It gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earns. (Pray:) "Our Lord! Condemn us not if we forget or fall into error; our Lord! Lay not on us a burden Like that which Thou didst lay on those before us; Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Blot out our sins, and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. Thou art our Protector; Help us against those who stand against faith." Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya. Ia mendapat pahala kebaikan yang diusahakannya, dan ia juga menanggung dosa kejahatan yang diusahakannya. (Mereka berdoa dengan berkata): "Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau mengirakan kami salah jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Wahai Tuhan kami ! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. Dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap kaum-kaum yang kafir".  Surah Al Baqarah 2:216Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.  Kamu diwajibkan berperang (untuk menentang pencerobohan) sedang peperangan itu ialah perkara yang kamu benci; dan boleh jadi kamu benci kepada sesuatu padahal ia baik bagi kamu, dan boleh jadi kamu suka kepada sesuatu padahal ia buruk bagi kamu. Dan (ingatlah), Allah jualah Yang mengetahui (semuanya itu), sedang kamu tidak mengetahuinya.  Surah Al Talaq 65:2 ... And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him a way out ... dan sesiapa yang bertaqwa kepada Allah (dengan mengerjakan suruhanNya dan meninggalkan laranganNya), nescaya Allah akan mengadakan baginya jalan keluar (dari segala perkara yang menyusahkannya) Surah Al Talaq 65:3 And will provide for him from where he does not expect. And whoever relies upon Allah - then He is sufficient for him. Indeed, Allah will accomplish His purpose. Allah has already set for everything a [decreed] extent. Serta memberinya rezeki dari jalan yang tidak terlintas di hatinya. Dan (Ingatlah), sesiapa berserah diri bulat-bulat kepada Allah, maka Allah cukuplah baginya (untuk menolong dan menyelamatkannya). Sesungguhnya Allah tetap melakukan segala perkara yang dikehendakiNya. Allah telahpun menentukan kadar dan masa bagi berlakunya tiap-tiap sesuatu.  Surah Hud 11:52 And O my people! Ask forgiveness of your Lord, and turn to Him (in repentance): He will send you the skies pouring abundant rain, and add strength to your strength: so turn ye not back in sin! Dan wahai kaumku! Mintalah ampun kepada Tuhan kamu, kemudian kembalilah taat kepadaNya, supaya Ia menghantarkan kepada kamu hujan lebat serta menambahkan kamu kekuatan di samping kekuatan kamu yang sedia ada; dan janganlah kamu membelakangkan seruanku dengan terus melakukan dosa!  Surah Yusuh 12:87 O my sons! go ye and enquire about Joseph and his brother, and never give up hope of Allah.s Soothing Mercy: truly no one despairs of Allah.s Soothing Mercy, except those who have no faith."  Wahai anak-anakku! Pergilah dan intiplah khabar berita mengenai Yusuf dan saudaranya (Bunyamin), dan janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat serta pertolongan Allah. Sesungguhnya tidak berputus asa dari rahmat dan pertolongan Allah itu melainkan kaum yang kafir".  Surah Al Anfaal 8:29 O ye who believe! if ye fear Allah, He will grant you a criterion (to judge between right and wrong), remove from you (all) evil (that may afflict) you, and forgive you: for Allah is the Lord of grace unbounded.  Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Jika kamu bertaqwa kepada Allah, nescaya Ia mengadakan bagi kamu (petunjuk) yang membezakan antara yang benar dengan yang salah, dan menghapuskan kesalahan-kesalahan kamu, serta mengampunkan (dosa-dosa) kamu. Dan Allah (sememangnya) mempunyai limpah kurnia yang besar. Surah Al Insyirah 94:5 So, verily, with every difficulty, there is relief Oleh itu, maka (tetapkanlah kepercayaanmu) bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan  Surah Al Insyirah 94:6 Verily, with every difficulty there is relief (Sekali lagi ditegaskan): bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan.  Surah Al Insyirah 94:8 And to thy Lord turn (all) thy attention Dan kepada Tuhanmu sahaja hendaklah engkau memohon (apa yang engkau gemar dan ingini).

All the surah surah mention above is not me simply with no guidance choosing it by myself. Its from the classes Agama that I've attended and Agama books I read.That being said, so be it to selfish people. Let Allah deal with them as for me I'll be praying, du'aa  to Allah for everything help, patience peace of mind. And for me to pass LLB with good grades Insya'Allah. Amin.

Boo boo's pleasant surprise

There I was lying down in my room and abah knocked on my door and said

Abah   : Azim is here. 

Me      : Huh? *surprised*

Abah   : You didnt know he's coming? 

Well of course no wonder I didnt know, he came over for a surprise visit. When I came out from my room there he was my handsome boo boo smiling handing over to me my favourite sub, meatballs with extra gravy. Aaawhh what a pleasant surprise. We sat and talked for a while,talked with my parents and they asked did he just received his paycheck? I think they figured it out since he came to surprise me and brought sub for me. True enough he just received his first pay check today. Syukur Alhamdulilah, InsyaAllah murah rezeki with rezeki yang halal Amin.My parents also invited boo boo to join my family and I for dinner. I am soooo happy he is there sitting by my side having dinner with my family and me.

To my boo boo, a reminder from me. Work diligently with niat ikhlas to receive income from a halal source, pray and always Dua' for forgiveness, hidayah, to always be on the right track,be thankful,pray for good health, a blessed life and for rezeki that is berkat. Amin Amin ya rabbal Alamin.  

 I will pray for you too handsome boo boo and also for us of course.

*wish list*

The chanel and tod's tote, ferragamo flats is not included in the list as I am as of now building a realistic list of things which I can actually afford at the moment : )  Fossil hobo and purse, chucks, lomo and hippie sling bag is in my (near future) realistic wish list.

*food to eat/ I am craving*

The photos says its all ! Good thing all the food I am currently craving are those I am able to cook and bake with an exception to the pavlova. Who knows seeing as I am on mid term holidays, I could give it another try  spending a whole day in the kitchen in my attempt of baking  chocolate pavlova.

YOU make it real for me

Boo boo : Baby, this song is for you.

Me         : Really boo? : ) Why?? how come its dedicated to me?

He say's I am the person who is able to calm him when he's having a bad day, throughout the tough times he's  been through. He says Im able snap him back to his senses and stop him from being so head strong. He says I am the person who he can turn to when he is breaking down. He says Im his sanity when he's not able to think straight. He says when he is on the verge of giving up I remind him to stay strong have faith and I stay there by his side through it all.

What he doesn't realise is he is an amazing boyfriend, for the tears I've cried he is there to wipe it dry. He is there to stop me from crying. Takes my hand calm me down. Turns my tears to laughter. Makes me laugh and giggle.What he doesnt realise is that I miss him so badly now that he's done with LLB It feels different that my boo boo is not with me while here I am in my final semester to finish LLB. I miss him soo much! Boo boo I miss youu oh god LLB without boo boo there with me. It'll be tough but like he tells me be a tough chick. And that I'll be!

Welcome to the Joifins

Alhamdulilah welcoming a new member to the Joifins. Exactly 2 weeks old today,she's Adriana Calisa Joifin binti Arif Faiz Joifin. Soo chubby *gerammmm* I have kissed her many many times already. Looking forward to spoiling this cutie pie too. Tater tot teagie has a friend now! I sense this one will be even more spoilt. I hope not too spoilt though. LOL we'll see about that hahaha. Anyhow am  looking forward to reading books with her and buying many cute girly hair clips, fairy outfit, tutu!!  That's if abg arif allows me to dress her in a tutu. I shall find my ways , I will find a way of getting her into a tutu : )

Something to reflect upon

The poster says it all, its like a slap in the face isn't it?

Made me realise just how fortunate I am and reminds me to be grateful for what I have and complain less, for they are people in other parts of the world heck even here back home they are people who are fighting a harder battle and having a hard time surviving.

It makes me think now, how can I help? There must be something I, we can do about this rather than just sitting back day by day enjoying life unaware of this. Of even so, once we're aware of it it slips our mind the moment we go back to our daily life routine. I hope that wont be the case with me. Now that I'm very much aware  of it,helping out even beginning with the smallest way shall be one of the things on my to do list.