overwhelm

im up n awake.i knoe its early.monday morning pulak 2 bgn awal.semangat sgt..yea la 2.so not..feel down n draggy.mayb its monday blues.things are so overwhelming lately.if its a test for me which i think it is.i'm trying and doing my best to get through this.



went to watch mooting at UM last friday and there was a moment when it hit me and it made me think can i do that? i honestly freaked out a bit watching them moot in the lecture theater.talked about it later with zella and mashi and they said they were thinking the same thing jgk..mooting made us think and realise that we still have loads to seriously learn about.



as for about family matters.i knoe everyone is doing their best to deal with it,move on and stay strong.insya'Allah everything will b okay n stay ok.i knoe i'm the weak one in the family always have been.i pity abg arif n aqilah always have to b strong for me.my rock n backbone.im learning to b strong for the family.i will for our family's sake.



about frens.

lala-the busy one.its hectic fr u.nk meet up before ur sem starts..nnt lg u busy.

alia- i knoe its tough what ur going thru.but like we talked bout.ada hikmah.plus if stress2 besides zarif i'm here too n we have a goal to reach.

liy- its ur final sem.all out.do ur best.we all knoe u can.DL again babe.make us proud.igt our deal.

tiks- its been long x jumpa n im yet to finish reading da book i borrowed from u.i wanna meet up.miss u.

farah- ur back!about time.i knoe those in germany will miss u.but ktorang kt sini lg miss u.

najlaa -lg la.lama sgt x talk bout all the sillyness n craziness.

nisha -dah mcm off the radar.tiks we soo have to go kidnap her so she'll have no choice.

bonjella-i knoe ur in a tough situation at the moment.i can see it.whatever it is i'm here for u like you are when i need u.



about my kakak
focus n study hard k.


about my dear t
i'm wondering if its me doing things wrong and if so what im doing wrong.i miss so much us talking about anything and everything.us laughing.me being silly with you.i heart you t and i miss you.


about my studies
man ooo man..the goal.yup tho its agk susah i will do my best.


tho its all overwhelming these are the people and things i care the most about and for that
reason i'll bear with it.

im giving in and letting it slide

im just really bummed and i've decided i'm just gonna let it all slide.i dont have the strength for it.its just so tiring to deal with all this.so tired.and actually kindda sick of it and buat sakit hati.do la whatever that makes you happy.whats weird is you can do something like that.even when it hurts another person.i really dont understand how there are people like this in the world.i guess thats life.whatever thats happening right now i guess there is a reason for it...i just believe in the way karma works.i've really tried my very best to deal with it.you are still like that jgk..and worst part is its hurting me.so im giving in.

arc-en-ciel

il y a toujours un-arc-en-ciel apres la pluie

the start of 3rd sem

i felt so disorganised for the past 3 weeks.like everything around me is in fast circling motion.ok im kindda talking weirdly.but that was how i felt.i hate that i've been freaking out a lot lately.other den that lecturers seem ok.a bit strict. i dont wanna jinx it so i wont say much.moms been in the hospital for a week.she's a lot better now.doc said she shud b discharge soon.good to knoe.for third sem the classes r hmm well...put it this way.its lecture n tutorial.you go.listen n learn.kindda dull at times.i guess its a mind set thing.if i see it as boring den it'll b boring.duh..i wanna find a good book to read.it's been quite some time since i've read a good book.shud look for one.i wanna sketch and paint too.like i have the time la kan..i shud find the time for dat too.

back from egypt.halas.

the trip was interesting in its own way.frankly speaking let me put it this way its a once in a lifetime kindda thing.i only enjoyed some parts of it.the place is like frozen in time.its like i transported back to the past say 20 or 30 years back.look around and you'll see building half completed and half not completed.and the country's hygiene is kindda neglected.when in egypt:while walking look down.most times there's poop either from the horses or camels.the traffic and the way they drive scares me.and as for the sleeper train my advice would be go for only if ur in for an adventure and dont mind being uncomfortable for 12-13 hours straight.
the things i liked were the cruise along the nile river.the pyramid of course and the ancient ruins.and also their library at alexandria.beautiful.



The Spinx and the Pyramids

Edfu temple

Al-Deir Al Bahari temple

Kom Ombo temple

Train station

wait for it...

wait for it...

BOO

on the cruise

hot air baloons

abah dgn hoodie n heart sunglasses.funny.hehehe.

Library at Alexandria

at the bazaars

on a different note.im kindda scared semester is about to start.i'm half ready half not.my result for last semester was bad.and i'm scared bout my classes.hope it'll be fine.insyaAllah.aqilah has gone back to Shah Alam.*all the best for the new semester* i've got loads of things to do bfr semester starts.

• my books needs to be arranged.its not arranged the rite way.


• my clothes needs to be folded/iron and arranged.


• my rooms needs tidying up.


• unpack all the things from my suitcase


• gotta make an appointment to sent my car for service.


• buy mama's present.


• pay fees


• check class timetable


• remember to breath.not to b too scared bout the new semester.

i was rummaging through my piles of books and papers in the study room and found these quotes.soo long but i think its worth the time to read.theres actually a few but i'll jz write two.kindda appropriate in starting new semester and ushering the new year.

there is a tide in the affairs of men which taken the fload,leads on fortune omitted,all the voyage of their life is bound in shallows and in miseries, on such a full sea are we now afloat.and we must take the current whent it serves or lose the ventures before us

-wlilliam shakespeare,julias ceaser-

life is to short,grudges are a waste of perfect happiness,laugh when you can apologize when you should,love deeply and forgive quickly have no regrets.life is too short to be unhappy,you have to take the good with the bad,smile when you're unhappy,love what you got and always remember what you have,always forgive but never forget and learn from your mistakes

-unknown-

found this on one of the artsy sites.nice.

wow super loong post.i was actually trying to fill up the space below.but its like infinity.it goes on and on.so whateverla.biar ada space.nampak kindda weird.but i dont knoe wat's up with this posting kali ni.

me blabbering

im now officially the maid and gardener.lol.yeah okay i know my friends would so laugh but someone has gotta do it rite? or else the house is going to be a crazy mess.aqilah finds it funny seeing me sweeping not only inside the house but also sweeping the yard.i assume she finds it so interesting to the point that she wanted to take a picture of me sweeping.owh geez im glad i amused her.earliar today went to run errands with aqilah.drove by kt.missed a junction so decided to take a detour and drive around.i remembered the days when i was still in primary school.literally the whole of kt was our playground.so funny.i realise that i tend to forget things that i have to do and want.so i'm making a list of randomweirdstuff.



wish list/to do list

• i need and want new curtains
• in need of new bedsheets as well
• i want new handbag(s)
• i so should learn how to use the dslr
• i should trim my hair its kindda out of shape
• i should also resume with my t-shirt making
• have to make new board for my earrings
• wishing for a carpenter to remove the old cupboard and build new ones
• i want to bake brownies

eventful weekend

so it was kindda crazy the past few days with the shooting going on in the house. lights.camera. action!loads of people.with the crew n all it felt like we had an open house.what i'm really surprised by is how friendly the actors are.i would have thought they'd b busy minding their own business n all.but its nice to know that they're nice and friendly bunch of people. and it was kindda interesting to watch the process of making a drama.now i know for juz one scene they do like gabazillion takes.from many different angles.on a different topic.tok called juz now nk ajak make ketupat with her.so cute.but there are relatives coming over tonite.so x sempat nk tolong my grandma..
*congratulations to faizil and norhayati*.she seem nice and sweet.to my cousin and cousin in law best wishes and semoga bahagia sepanjang hayat :)