Alhamdulilah Im so relieved and thankful that finally i've made it in llb. The new journey begins. *Here's to new beginnings*.
As for now my new journey has already begun with finding out that starting out something new is not easy. It doesnt matter if its something i really like and enjoy so much doing. But i've realised it sure is not a walk in the park. This is what people call starting from the bottom from scratch. Literally. Its tough!
Whatever it is im in for the ride and there's no where else im heading but foward.
Lesson learned: Determination + Perseverance + Commitment + Patience + Hard work = InsyaAllah the outcome will be a good one. Amin.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
My mind is full of wonders
As of now...
1. I am constantly thinking of all the creative ideas and the execution plan.
2. So many things im thinking of doing find it hard to sleep at night reasons being i just cant seem to sleep when my mind keeps on working and inspirations seem to come to me at the oddest hour of the day.
3. I am enjoying hour every minute every second of my time doing what i really love doing.
4. Who knew i had such imagination even i myself am surprise with weird ideas that pop up in my head.
5. Most times i am physically sitting still at one place but truthfully speaking i am miles away caught up in my own world.
6. My muse and inspirations comes in all forms even while shopping for grocery, while im looking for parking space,walking by roadside to buy lunch
7 Even weirder, though my mind is constantly thinking of more ideas it somehow all of this imagination seems to serve as peace and tranquility to me.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
You dont understand
"When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years"
You say you're here but truth is you're just so busy wrapped up in your own world. I've been alone in this. There's no "us" if its just me making the effort while you are just so engrossed with your own life. I have no choice but to walk away from this or else i'll keep on drowning deeper while you are just so selfish to even notice im drowning. I just hope that one day you will realise there's so much more to life other than your llb.I hope you will learn to make time for those who care for you. Because if you really care you will make time.
Im not expecting to always meet you. I understand its tough,tiring,stressful and you dont even get enough sleep and there's tonnes of assigments and tests one after another. I understand.But at least call. One phone call that lasts longer than 50 seconds, is that too much to ask for? I have tried. But i've finally lost my patience.The effort has got to come from you yourself.I really did do my best to make it work.Its time for me to move on.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
As for now
* I miss my mama and abah very much.
* Very annoyed with big sister's attitude.
* Its been about a month plus since i've met any of my friends. I miss that too.
* I've started work/attatchment.
* I've been given research on bankruptcy and submission.
* I've been given case study and articles to be read and discussed.
* I'm scared I'd make myself come of as incompetent and stupid by doing the
research and discussing the case and articles wrongly.
* Almost everyday at work i feel as tough im so small and dumb because i dont know
much as compared to the lawyers and chambering students.
* My high spirit and excitement of learning and experiencing new things is slightly
dampened.
* Very disappointed with some people's preconception of me before they actually get
to know the real me.
* So very disappointed on how people judge a book by its cover.
* I'm not gonna let anyone make me feel small and stupid.What's most important is
im there to work and learn.
* I'm gonna keep on working hard to learn new things and gain experience from this
opportunity.
* If i make mistakes,look or sound stupid so what.I'm still learning.
* Its what learning is about.Everyone makes mistakes.I make mistakes too at times
and I'll learn from it.
* What sets a smart person apart from an ignorant person is,
Ignorant person = those who keep on making the same mistakes
Smart person = those who learn from their mistakes.
* My current mode: to learn and develop myself
* I shall not be so bothered with what others think of me.
* I'm sincere to learn and that's what matters most.
* Very annoyed with big sister's attitude.
* Its been about a month plus since i've met any of my friends. I miss that too.
* I've started work/attatchment.
* I've been given research on bankruptcy and submission.
* I've been given case study and articles to be read and discussed.
* I'm scared I'd make myself come of as incompetent and stupid by doing the
research and discussing the case and articles wrongly.
* Almost everyday at work i feel as tough im so small and dumb because i dont know
much as compared to the lawyers and chambering students.
* My high spirit and excitement of learning and experiencing new things is slightly
dampened.
* Very disappointed with some people's preconception of me before they actually get
to know the real me.
* So very disappointed on how people judge a book by its cover.
* I'm not gonna let anyone make me feel small and stupid.What's most important is
im there to work and learn.
* I'm gonna keep on working hard to learn new things and gain experience from this
opportunity.
* If i make mistakes,look or sound stupid so what.I'm still learning.
* Its what learning is about.Everyone makes mistakes.I make mistakes too at times
and I'll learn from it.
* What sets a smart person apart from an ignorant person is,
Ignorant person = those who keep on making the same mistakes
Smart person = those who learn from their mistakes.
* My current mode: to learn and develop myself
* I shall not be so bothered with what others think of me.
* I'm sincere to learn and that's what matters most.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
photographs and a hidden surprise love letter
What a pleasant surprise. Framed photos of us and the "icing on the cake" was the love letter he wrote and cleverly hid on the board at the back part of the frame. It was the sweetest love letter. I was smilling grinning from ear to ear.Who knew the usualy reserved boyfriend of mine could express himself in the sweetest way ever. Im so touched by the letter. He has wrote love notes, random little sayings for me. But a love letter. This is the first. And i can tell he practiced a lot of times what to write. Hehehe. So sweet i knew he wanted it to be just perfect. Bt i must say I love the imperfections. How he inserted the things left out by adding it in by the side. So quirky. Love it!
Btw,I know exactly what im gonna do with the love letter. Inspiration has just popped in my head for my art work curtesy of boo boo and his love letter. But this piece of artwork by me will be special. Cz its inspired by him and im gonna personalized it. It'll definately be one of a kind ; )
I miss him already..its ok he's coming back tonight. Yeay! i dont know how i'll be in a long distance relationship. He has only been away for a few days and already it feels like something, a part of me is missing. It doesnt help that he forgot to activate his roaming system. Haihh. Boys and men they overlook those kind of things. It'll be way easier to text n call. Luckily there's internet. Had to make do with e-mail.
Anyhow that aside, im totally smitten by the lovely surprise by my oh so loving boo boo. Kept me smiling for days and days : )
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Exploring the creative scene
I've been so engrossed in working on my side project the one that i've been putting off for a few months. Now finally its up and running. Im so excited about it!
Current mode: Working hard trying to get it done while at the same time exploring every nooks and croonies, observing and looking for inspirations. Ideas come popping in my head at the randomest times. Which explains the reason why i have to bring my sketchbook around to sketch or jot it down. For desperate measures jotting it down in my phone as soon as it comes. Or else it might slip my mind.
Anyhow that's still an ongoing process. As for now some pictures from klpac's open day and world press photo 10
As for klpac open day it was ok.I enjoyed playing dress up in costumes and getting our picture taken and the closing. The performance with all sorts of musical instruments. I really did enjoy that. Felt like getting up and dancing along doing the hilly billy dance.HAHAHAH. Bt I hav to say the musical perfomance was fun. I liked that part the most.
For the world press day photo exhibition,Oh how i loved the picture exhibits.So raw. So real.Very in your face. The pictures spoke a million words to me. Especially the war pictures. I felt disgusted at how these people can continue attacking and killing innocent civilians, i felt angry,felt sad, felt like crying there and then. Im so sensative. I know. But seriously that's how good it was it could move me to tears.
On the other hand i took photos of some inspiring photographs. As for the photos i talked about earlier, I jz couldnt bring myself to take photos of those photographs cos i know i will cry everytime i look at it. After all it is already a clear image in my head a constant reminder of just how cruel some people are.
Current mode: Working hard trying to get it done while at the same time exploring every nooks and croonies, observing and looking for inspirations. Ideas come popping in my head at the randomest times. Which explains the reason why i have to bring my sketchbook around to sketch or jot it down. For desperate measures jotting it down in my phone as soon as it comes. Or else it might slip my mind.
Anyhow that's still an ongoing process. As for now some pictures from klpac's open day and world press photo 10
As for klpac open day it was ok.I enjoyed playing dress up in costumes and getting our picture taken and the closing. The performance with all sorts of musical instruments. I really did enjoy that. Felt like getting up and dancing along doing the hilly billy dance.HAHAHAH. Bt I hav to say the musical perfomance was fun. I liked that part the most.
For the world press day photo exhibition,Oh how i loved the picture exhibits.So raw. So real.Very in your face. The pictures spoke a million words to me. Especially the war pictures. I felt disgusted at how these people can continue attacking and killing innocent civilians, i felt angry,felt sad, felt like crying there and then. Im so sensative. I know. But seriously that's how good it was it could move me to tears.
On the other hand i took photos of some inspiring photographs. As for the photos i talked about earlier, I jz couldnt bring myself to take photos of those photographs cos i know i will cry everytime i look at it. After all it is already a clear image in my head a constant reminder of just how cruel some people are.
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Sunday, January 16, 2011
Happy New Year!
I know right two weeks have passed im sitll here wishing new year. But its still January 2011 has just begun and what a way to ring in the new year with a family wedding. *Meaning a new addition to the family * i hav a sister in law : ) As for the wedding it was very much so a family affair especially with gramps very hands on and involved with the preperations. Alhamdulillah everything went well except for some minor glitches. Like the ushering issue. Nevermind that, we are all very glad everything else went smoothly.
My big brother is a married man!! lol cant believe it. *So happy for both of them* best wishes for both and i pray for them a lifetime of happiness.
It was fun,challenging, most of all tiring helping with the preperations of the wedding. Now that everything is done. Im in need to go to a spa for some relaxation time and pampering.
As for the new year i received a handbook for 2011 which i think will be very helpful to me. Since sometimes im just so serious and stressed. Im in need of guidelines.
HEALTH:
1. drink plenty of water
2. eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar
3. live with the 3 E's. Enthusiasm, Energy and Empathy
4. make time to pray
5. play more games
6. read more books than you did in 2010
7. sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
8. sleep for 7 hours
9. take 10-30 minutes walk daily.
PERSONALITY:
10. dont over do. keep your limits
11.dont take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
12.dream more while you are awake
13.envy is a waste of time. you already have all you need
14. Forget issues of the past. dont remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. that will ruin your present happiness
15.life is to short to waste time hating anyone. dont hate others.
16. make peace with your past so it wont spoil the present
17. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
18. smile and laugh more
19. you dont have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
SOCIETY:
20. call your family often
21. each day give something good to others
22.forgive everyone for everything
23.spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
24. try to make at least 3 people smile each day
25. what other people think of you is none of your business.
LIFE:
26. do the right thing!
27.GOD heals everything
28.However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
29. no matter how you feel, get up, get dressed and show up.
30. the best is yet to come.
31. when awake in the morning, thank GOD for it.
32. your inner most is always happy, so be happy
* the ones highlighted RED are what i totally agree with and in need to instill for myself.
After all its a new year so here's to new beginnings!!
My big brother is a married man!! lol cant believe it. *So happy for both of them* best wishes for both and i pray for them a lifetime of happiness.
It was fun,challenging, most of all tiring helping with the preperations of the wedding. Now that everything is done. Im in need to go to a spa for some relaxation time and pampering.
As for the new year i received a handbook for 2011 which i think will be very helpful to me. Since sometimes im just so serious and stressed. Im in need of guidelines.
HEALTH:
1. drink plenty of water
2. eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar
3. live with the 3 E's. Enthusiasm, Energy and Empathy
4. make time to pray
5. play more games
6. read more books than you did in 2010
7. sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
8. sleep for 7 hours
9. take 10-30 minutes walk daily.
PERSONALITY:
10. dont over do. keep your limits
11.dont take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
12.dream more while you are awake
13.envy is a waste of time. you already have all you need
14. Forget issues of the past. dont remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. that will ruin your present happiness
15.life is to short to waste time hating anyone. dont hate others.
16. make peace with your past so it wont spoil the present
17. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
18. smile and laugh more
19. you dont have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
SOCIETY:
20. call your family often
21. each day give something good to others
22.forgive everyone for everything
23.spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
24. try to make at least 3 people smile each day
25. what other people think of you is none of your business.
LIFE:
26. do the right thing!
27.GOD heals everything
28.However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
29. no matter how you feel, get up, get dressed and show up.
30. the best is yet to come.
31. when awake in the morning, thank GOD for it.
32. your inner most is always happy, so be happy
* the ones highlighted RED are what i totally agree with and in need to instill for myself.
After all its a new year so here's to new beginnings!!
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